From family letter: So nice to hear that things are going well and that Thanksgiving was a
blast! As you know, we don't celebrate Thanksgiving down here. The day
consisted of a lot of work. I don't honestly remember what we ate. I haven't really been hungry recently anyway. (She had a stomach bug for a few days). This
week was pretty stressful for me.
Hermana Pilliza y Hermana Dickson
This week has been one of fasting and prayer. It hasn't
been easy. Not that any week in the mission necessarily is. Despite the
challenges, internal and external, I know quite distinctly and without a
hint of doubt that my Savior lives. That He loves me and is ever
observant of me. And that He loves every person I have interacted with
this week: member, less active, and investigator. Every person we've
invited on the street. Every person who has said yes, and every
individual who has turned down our invitation.
This
week we spent a little bit of time every day with Soledad, the daughter
of Hermana Lopez. She's very attentive when we teach her, and there are
certainly times when I know she can feel the spirit. Once during the
week we were sharing about the importance of prayer. I can't recall what
I said, but I remember being brought to tears the spirit was so strong
for me. I don't know if Soledad has a lot of interest in the church
right now. But all we can do as missionaries is invite, bring the
spirit, and pray. One day she'll feel for herself that this is of God,
and that it is true. Right now I feel like I'm planting a lot of seeds.
But even if my progress isn't readily seen on the surface, my efforts
are never in vain. Through the help and love of Christ I am touching the
lives of people here, and Christ is changing me completely, inside and
out.
My companion who is from Ecuador and Spain
Near the beginning of the week Hermana Pilliza
and I were in the park with Jhon. We were going to teach Jhon a little
bit, but before we reached the bench where we planned on teaching him he
wanted to invite a man who was enjoying the shade of a large tree. He
was in a wheelchair. We went up and started talking with the man. He
didn't want to hear anything, and told us he didn't even believe in God.
I offered him a card with the direction of the church, the hours, and
our number. When I started talking he seemed to perk up and suddenly
have interest. It didn't have anything to do with our message. We
quickly ended the conversation and retreated to a different part of the
park to teach Jhon. Hermana Pilliza joked with me, calling him my
¨novio¨ (boyfriend). (Not!) Tampoco. But this is the life of Argentina. Say you're from the
United States and wear a skirt and look out! Don't worry, I'm strong
and can run fast.
We had been working with Alan,
helping him to be ready for baptism on the 29th of November, this last
Saturday. We fasted, prayed, and called him every night, working with
him and trying to help him understand why baptism was important. We gave
all we had. I gave all I had to give. But in the end, it was up to him.
As it always is. And he didn't feel ready. He felt like it was too soon
and unimportant. And so it fell through. It was hard for me, in the
sense that I can see where Alan can be in the future. I can see him very
clearly in the temple. I can see what the Lord sees for him, and it
truly aches that he does not have this vision. But I can't say anything.
It always seems to be this way. I cannot see the vision the Lord has
for me, although I'm trying to earn such spiritual eyes. It's hard in
the process. But God isn't going to give up on Alan. And when he feels
ready he will take this step, and begin a whole new life, one in perfect
harmony with the Lord.
On Saturday
it was insufferably hot. The humidity was pressing, and I wanted
nothing more than to take an ice cold shower. Dressed for the heat, we
headed out. Later in the afternoon, as predicted, it poured. And when I
say poured, I'm talking Missouri rain. We had to ford our way across a
small ocean, complete with little waves! It was welcome after the heat,
although we weren't at all prepared. Go figure;) We stopped by the
Pucheta's to dry off and warm up a little bit. They truly are my home
away from home and I love them so much!
On Sunday
I was blessed with the surprise of jumping up and taking front stage on
the piano for the hymns. I wasn't expecting such, so it wasn't my best
performance, but it was better than nothing! We had lunch with the
Montiel's, for all intents and purposes my aunt and uncle, before
heading out, this time completely prepared for the rain. Rain that
didn't come;)
It was a trying week all in all, but I know
things will turn out all right in the end. This is the work of the Lord.
And, as the saying goes, sometimes God calms the storm. And sometimes
he lets the storm rage and calms the storm within us. I feel like in
this week of internal and external storms the Lord has been mindful of
me.
Once a week, we can write home to our friends and family. We pay for computer time.
I love all of you and am praying for you! Continue to
trust in God. Regardless of the pain, or the overwhelming sense of
loneliness, trust in Him.
All my love,
Hermana Dickson
Reading Homework from Hermana Dickson: She says please READ.
“Cast Not Away Therefore Your Confidence”
From a devotional address given at Brigham Young University on 2 March 1999.
Beware
the temptation to retreat from a good thing. If it was right when you
prayed about it and trusted it and lived for it, it is right now.
There is a lesson in the Prophet
Joseph Smith’s
account of the First Vision which virtually every Latter-day Saint has
had occasion to experience, or one day soon will. It is the plain and
very sobering truth that before great moments, certainly before great
spiritual moments, there can come adversity, opposition, and darkness.
Life has some of those moments for us, and occasionally they come just
as we are approaching an important decision or a significant step in our
lives.
In
that marvelous account which we read too seldom, Joseph said he had
scarcely begun his prayer when he felt a power of astonishing influence
come over him. “Thick darkness,” as he described it, gathered around him
and seemed bent on his utter destruction. But he exerted all his powers
to call upon God to deliver him out of the power of this enemy, and as
he did so a pillar of light brighter than the noonday sun descended
gradually until it rested upon him. At the very moment of the light’s
appearance, he found himself delivered from the destructive power which
had held him bound. What then followed is the greatest epiphany since
the events surrounding the Crucifixion,
Resurrection,
and Ascension of Christ in the meridian of time. The Father and the Son
appeared to Joseph Smith, and the dispensation of the fulness of times
had begun.
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Most
of us do not need any more reminders than we have already had that
there is one who personifies “opposition in all things,” that “an angel
of God” fell “from heaven” and in so doing became “miserable forever.”
What a chilling destiny! Because this is Lucifer’s fate, “he sought also
the misery of all mankind,” Lehi teaches us.
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The Fight Goes On
An
entire article could be devoted to this subject of the adversary’s
strong, preliminary, anticipatory opposition to many of the good things
God has in store for us. But I want to move past that observation to
another truth we may not recognize so readily. This is a lesson in the
parlance of the athletic contest that reminds us “it isn’t over until
it’s over.” It is the reminder that the fight goes on. Unfortunately we
must not think Satan is defeated with that first strong breakthrough
which so dramatically brought the light and moved us forward.
To
make my point a little more vividly, may I go to another passage of
scripture, indeed, to another vision. You will recall that the book of
Moses
begins with him being taken up to “an exceedingly high mountain” where,
the scripture says, “he saw God face to face, and he talked with him,
and the glory of God was upon Moses.” What then followed was what
happens to prophets who are taken to high mountains. The Lord said to
Moses:
“Look,
and I will show thee the workmanship of mine hands. … Moses looked, and
… beheld the earth, yea, even all of it; and there was not a particle
of it which he did not behold, discerning it by the spirit of God. And
he beheld also the inhabitants thereof, and there was not a soul which
he beheld not.”
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This
experience is remarkable by every standard. It is one of the great
revelations given in human history. It stands with the greatest accounts
we have of any prophet’s experience with Divinity.
But
Moses’ message to you today is: Don’t let your guard down. Don’t assume
that a great revelation, some marvelous, illuminating moment, the
opening of an inspired path, is the end of it. Remember, it isn’t over
until it’s over.
What happens to Moses next,
after
his revelatory moment, would be ludicrous if it were not so dangerous
and so true to form. Lucifer—in an effort to continue his opposition, in
his unfailing effort to get his licks in later if not sooner—appears
and shouts in equal portions of anger and petulance after God has
revealed Himself to the prophet: “Moses, worship me.” But Moses is not
having it. He has just seen the real thing, and by comparison this sort
of performance is pretty dismal.
“Moses looked upon Satan and said: Who art thou? … Where is thy glory, that I should worship thee?
“For behold, I could not look upon God, except his glory should come upon me. … But I can look upon thee in the natural man. …
“Where is thy glory, for it is darkness unto me? And I can judge between thee and God. …
“Get thee hence, Satan; deceive me not.”
The record then depicts a reaction that is both pathetic and frightening:
“And
now, when Moses had said these words, Satan cried with a loud voice,
and ranted upon the earth, and commanded, saying: I am the Only
Begotten, worship me.
“And
it came to pass that Moses began to fear exceedingly; and as he began
to fear, he saw the bitterness of hell. Nevertheless, calling upon God
[the very phrase used by Joseph Smith], he received strength, and he
commanded, saying: Depart from me, Satan, for this one God only will I
worship, which is the God of glory.
“And now Satan began to tremble, and the earth shook. …
“And
it came to pass that Satan cried with a loud voice, with weeping, and
wailing, and gnashing of teeth; and he departed hence,”
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always to come again, we can be sure, but always to be defeated by the God of glory—always.
Do Not Draw Back
I
wish to encourage every one of us regarding the opposition that so
often comes after enlightened decisions have been made, after moments of
revelation and conviction have given us a peace and an assurance we
thought we would never lose. In his letter to the Hebrews, the Apostle
Paul was trying to encourage new members who had just joined the Church,
who undoubtedly had had spiritual experiences and received the pure
light of testimony, only to discover that their troubles had not ended
but that some of them had just begun.
Paul
pleaded with those new members in much the same way President Gordon B.
Hinckley is pleading with new members today. The reminder is that we
cannot sign on for a battle of such eternal significance and everlasting
consequence without knowing it will be a fight—a good fight and a
winning fight, but a fight nevertheless. Paul says to those who thought a
new testimony, a personal conversion, a spiritual baptismal experience
would put them beyond trouble—to these he says, “Call to remembrance the
former days, in which,
after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflictions.” Then this tremendous counsel, which is at the heart of my counsel to you: “
Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward.
“For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise. …
“… If any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him.
“… We are not of them who draw back unto perdition.”
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In
Latter-day Saint talk that is to say, Sure it is tough—before you join
the Church, while you are trying to join, and after you have joined.
That is the way it has always been, Paul says, but don’t draw back.
Don’t panic and retreat. Don’t lose your confidence. Don’t forget how
you once felt. Don’t distrust the experience you had. That tenacity is
what saved Moses and Joseph Smith when the adversary confronted them,
and it is what will save you.
I
suppose every returned missionary and probably every convert reading
these words knows exactly what I am talking about. Appointments for
discussions canceled, the
Book of Mormon
in a plastic bag hanging from a front doorknob, baptismal dates not
met. And so it goes through the teaching period, through the commitments
and the
baptism,
through the first weeks and months in the Church, and more or less
forever—at least, the adversary would pursue it forever if he thought he
could see any weakening of your resolve, any chink in your armor.
This
opposition turns up almost any place something good has happened. It
can happen when you are trying to get an education. It can hit you after
your first month in your new mission field. It certainly happens in
matters of love and marriage. It can occur in situations related to your
family, Church callings, or career.
With
any major decision there are cautions and considerations to make, but
once there has been illumination, beware the temptation to retreat from a
good thing. If it was right when you prayed about it and trusted it and
lived for it, it is right now. Don’t give up when the pressure mounts.
Certainly don’t give in to that being who is bent on the destruction of
your happiness. Face your doubts. Master your fears. “Cast not away
therefore your confidence.” Stay the course and see the beauty of life
unfold for you.
The Spirit of Revelation
To
help us make our way through these experiences, these important
junctures in our lives, let me draw from another scriptural reference to
Moses. It was given in the early days of this dispensation when
revelation was needed, when a true course was being set and had to be
continued.
Most Latter-day Saints know the formula for revelation given in section 9 of the
Doctrine and Covenants—the
verses about studying it out in your mind and the Lord promising to
confirm or deny. What most of us don’t read in conjunction with this is
the section which precedes it: section 8.
In that revelation the Lord has said, “I will tell you in your mind and in your heart, by the
Holy Ghost,
which shall come upon you and which shall dwell in your heart.” I love
the combination there of both mind and heart. God will teach us in a
reasonable way and in a revelatory way—mind and heart combined—by the
Holy Ghost. “Now, behold,” He continues,
“this is
the spirit of revelation; behold, this is the spirit by which Moses
brought the children of Israel through the Red Sea on dry ground.”
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Why
would the Lord use the example of crossing the Red Sea as the classic
example of “the spirit of revelation”? Why didn’t He use the First
Vision? Or the example from the book of Moses we just used? Or the
vision of the brother of Jared? Well, He could have used any of these,
but He didn’t. Here He had another purpose in mind.
Usually
we think of revelation as a downpour of information. But this is too
narrow a concept of revelation. May I suggest how section 8 broadens our
understanding, particularly in light of these “fights of affliction” we
have been discussing.
Questions Often Precede Revelation
First
of all, revelation almost always comes in response to a question,
usually an urgent question—not always, but usually. In that sense it
does provide information, but it is urgently needed information, special
information. Moses’ challenge was how to get himself and the children
of Israel out of this horrible predicament they were in. There were
chariots behind them, sand dunes on every side, and a lot of water
immediately ahead. He needed information to know what to do, but it
wasn’t a casual thing he was asking. In this case it was literally a
matter of life and death.
You
will need information too, but in matters of great consequence it is
not likely to come unless you want it urgently, faithfully, humbly.
Moroni calls it seeking “with real intent.”
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If you can seek that way and stay in that mode, not much that
the adversary can counter with will dissuade you from a righteous path.
You can hang on, whatever the assault and affliction, because you have
paid the price for real conviction.
Like
Moses in that vision, there may come after the fact some competing
doubts and confusion, but it will pale when you measure it against the
real thing.
Remember the real thing.
Remember how urgently you have needed help in earlier times and you got
it. The Red Sea will open to the honest seeker of revelation. The
adversary has power to hedge up the way, to marshal Pharaoh’s forces and
dog our escape right to the water’s edge, but he can’t produce the real
thing. He cannot conquer if we will it otherwise. Exerting all our
powers, the light will again come, the darkness will again retreat, the
safety will be sure. That is lesson number one about crossing the Red
Sea by the spirit of revelation.
Do Not Fear
Lesson
number two is closely related. It is that in the process of revelation
and making important decisions, fear plays a destructive, sometimes
paralyzing role. To Oliver Cowdery, who missed the opportunity of a
lifetime because he didn’t seize it in the lifetime of the opportunity,
the Lord said, “You did not continue as you commenced.” Does that sound
familiar to those who have been illuminated and then knuckled under to
second thoughts and returning doubts? “It is not expedient that you
should translate now,” the Lord said in language that must have been
very hard for Oliver to hear. “Behold, it was expedient when you
commenced;
but you feared, and the time is past, and it is not expedient now.”
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Everyone
runs the risk of fear. For a moment in Moses’ confrontation with the
adversary, “Moses began to fear exceedingly; and as he began to fear, he
saw the bitterness of hell.”
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That’s when you see it—when you are afraid.
That
is exactly the problem that beset the children of Israel at the edge of
the Red Sea, and it has everything to do with holding fast to your
earlier illumination. The record says, “And when Pharaoh drew nigh, the
children of Israel lifted up their eyes, and, behold, the Egyptians
marched after them; and they were sore afraid.” Some (just like those
Paul described earlier) said words to this effect: “Let’s go back. This
isn’t worth it. We must have been wrong. That probably wasn’t the right
spirit telling us to leave Egypt.” What they actually said to Moses was:
“Wherefore hast thou dealt thus with us, to carry us forth out of
Egypt? … It had been better for us to serve the Egyptians, than that we
should die in the wilderness.”
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And I have to say, “What about that which has already happened?
What about the miracles that got you here? What about the frogs and the
lice? What about the rod and the serpent, the river and the blood? What
about the hail, the locusts, the fire, the firstborn sons?”
How soon we forget. It would
not have been better to stay and serve the Egyptians, and it is
not
better to remain outside the Church, nor to put off marriage, nor to
reject a mission call or other Church service, and so on and so on
forever. Of course our faith will be tested as we fight through these
self-doubts and second thoughts. Some days we will be miraculously led
out of Egypt—seemingly free, seemingly on our way—only to come to yet
another confrontation, like all that water lying before us. At those
times we must resist the temptation to panic and give up. At those times
fear will be the strongest of the adversary’s weapons against us.
“And Moses said unto the people,
Fear ye not,
stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord. … The Lord shall fight
for you.” In confirmation the great Jehovah said to Moses, “Speak unto
the children of Israel, that they go forward.”
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That
is the second lesson of the spirit of revelation. After you have gotten
the message, after you have paid the price to feel His love and hear
the word of the Lord, go forward. Don’t fear, don’t vacillate, don’t
quibble, don’t whine. You may, like Alma going to Ammonihah, have to
find a route that leads an unusual way, but that is exactly what the
Lord is doing here for the children of Israel. Nobody had ever crossed
the Red Sea this way, but so what? There’s always a first time. With the
spirit of revelation, dismiss your fears and wade in with both feet. In
the words of Joseph Smith, “Brethren [and sisters], shall we not go on
in so great a cause? Go forward and not backward. Courage, brethren; and
on, on to the victory!”
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God Will Help Us
The
third lesson from the Lord’s spirit of revelation in the miracle of
crossing the Red Sea is that along with the illuminating revelation that
points us toward a righteous purpose or duty, God will also provide the
means and power to achieve that purpose. Trust in that eternal truth.
If God has told you something is right, if something is indeed true for
you, He will provide the way for you to accomplish it. That is true of
joining the Church or raising a family, of going on a mission, or any
one of a hundred other worthy tasks in life. Remember what the Savior
said to the Prophet Joseph Smith in the Sacred Grove. What was the
problem in 1820? Why was Joseph not to join another church? It was at
least in part because “they teach for doctrines the commandments of men,
having a form of godliness, but they deny the power thereof.”
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God’s grace is sufficient! The Lord would tell Joseph again and
again that just as in days of old the children of Israel would be “led
out of bondage by power, and with a stretched-out arm. … Therefore, let
not your hearts faint. … Mine angels shall go up before you, and also my
presence, and in time ye shall possess the goodly land.”
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What
goodly land? Well, your goodly land. Your promised land. Your new
Jerusalem. Your own little acre flowing with milk and honey. Your
future. Your dreams. Your destiny. I believe that in our own individual
ways, God takes us to the grove or the mountain or the temple and there
shows us the wonder of what His plan is for us. We may not see it as
fully as Moses or Nephi or the brother of Jared did, but we see as much
as we need to see in order to know the Lord’s will for us and to know
that He loves us beyond mortal comprehension. I also believe that the
adversary and his pinched, calculating little minions try to oppose such
experiences and then try to darken them after they happen. But that is
not the way of the gospel. That is not the way of a Latter-day Saint who
claims as the fundamental fact of the Restoration the spirit of
revelation. Fighting through darkness and despair and pleading for the
light is what opened this dispensation. It is what keeps it going, and
it is what will keep you going. With Paul, I say to all of you:
“Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward.
“For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.”
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I
acknowledge the reality of opposition and adversity, but I bear witness
of the God of glory, of the redeeming Son of God, of light and hope and
a bright future. I promise you that God lives and loves you, each one
of you, and that He has set bounds and limits to the opposing powers of
darkness. I testify that Jesus is the Christ, the victor over death and
hell and the fallen one who schemes there. The gospel of
Jesus Christ is true, and it has been restored.
“Fear ye not.” And when the second and third and fourth blows come, “fear ye not. … The Lord shall fight for you.”
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